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BEFORE YOU LISTEN
Content notes
The CSA Survival Guide is an autobiographical audio series, highlighting lived experiences at the intersection of intergenerational trauma, childhood sexual abuse, and psychedelic healing. Please note, The CSA Survival Guide is intended for mature audiences, as it discusses areas of life, and experiences, that may be considered intense, emotional, or socially taboo.
These experiences may include:
• Abortion
• Addiction
• Attempted suicide
• Bullying and/or social isolation
• Chronic illness
• Dating abuse and/or intimate partner violence
• Disordered eating
• Emotional, financial, physical, psychological and/or sexual abuse
• Grooming of minors
• Homicidal ideation
• Incarceration
• Medical trauma
• Mental illness
• Near-death experience
• Pregnancy loss
• Self-harm and/or self-mutilation
• Substance use
• Suicidal ideation
content warnings for this episode INCLUDE:
• Childhood Sexual Abuse
• Incest
Please listen thoughtfully, with respect to your own boundaries.
EPISODE SNAPSHOT
About this episode
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VANTAGE POINT
Personal perspective
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HOW THIS CONVERSATION UNFOLDS
Episode guide + timestamps
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REFLECTION + INTEGRATION
What to take with you
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FOR THOSE SEEKING SUPPORT
Trauma-informed resources
These episodes can evoke deep and unexpected emotions. If listening to this episode leaves you shaken, activated, or overwhelmed, know you do not have to hold that alone. Please note, the podcast is not a crisis service, and I can’t offer individual support here — but there are people and organizations whose purpose is to help you through moments like this.
IF YOU ARE IN IMMEDIATE DANGER, OR ARE EXPERIENCING SUICIDAL IDEATION:
Please contact emergency services in your area or a trusted local crisis line right away.
If you’re not sure where to start, you can search for a crisis line in your country or region, or use one of the resources listed below.
IF YOU NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE SOON:
988 Suicide + Crisis Lifeline — Call 988
988 Crisis Text Line — Text HOME to 741741
211 Mental Health Resource + Referral Service — Call 211
FOR ONGOING, SPECIFIC, OR TRAUMA-INFORMED SUPPORT:
NAMI Helpline — Call 1-800-950-6264 (NAMI)
NAMI Text Line — Text NAMI to 62640
Warmline.org — Visit online via www.warmline.org
If you are currently in crisis, press pause on the episode and prioritize your safety first.
TRANSCRIPT + SHOW NOTES
A detailed breakdown of the what +how
For accessibility, clarity, and those who prefer to read rather than listen, the full transcript is available below. Light edits have been made for flow and privacy. Feel free to download a PDF to take with you.
LINKS + MENTIONS FROM THIS EPISODE
Media to further explore
A curated list of everything cited or discussed in this episode: readings, resources, and points of reference.
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SPONSORS + OFFERINGS
Seeking thoughtful partnerships
We don’t have sponsors for this season. We’re intentionally taking our time looking for sponsors — individuals, organizations, and companies — whose work aligns with our ethos of care, integrity, and survivor-centered support.
If you’re interested in collaborating, please contact us.
IMPORTANT NOTES, LEGAL, + DISCLAIMERS
What the show is +is not
This podcast shares personal stories and reflections about childhood sexual abuse and its impact over a lifetime. It is created for adults and mature listeners. Nothing you hear here is medical, psychiatric, or legal advice. Listening to this show does not create a professional relationship of any kind between you and me. All opinions, views, and statements are my own, and do not reflect the views of any corporate entity — including Mokwa.org, Mokwa Creative Company, Mokwa House, or any other company connected to Mokwa LLC.
If you need treatment, medical guidance, or legal advice, please reach out to a qualified professional in your area.
NOT A SUBSTITUTE FOR THERAPY OR CRISIS SUPPORT:
This podcast can be part of your healing ecosystem, but it is not therapy, and it is not a crisis service.
I can’t assess risk, keep you safe in an emergency, or tell you what to do in a crisis.
If you are in immediate danger or feel you might hurt yourself or someone else, please contact local emergency services or a trusted crisis line right away, before anything else.
You’ll find a list of support resources in the For Those Seeking Support section above.
STORIES, DETAILS, AND PRIVACY:
The stories shared on The CSA Survival Guide are based on real experiences. To protect privacy and safety:
Names and identifying details may be changed, edited, or combined.
Timelines and locations may be slightly adjusted, as long as it does not alter the emotional truth of the story.
All individuals who appear on the show have given informed consent to share their experiences in this format. Even so, no singular story can capture the whole of a person’s life or healing. Based on previously established mutual agreement, no specific individual will be identified by name in relation to my experiences of childhood sexual abuse — including by family identifier (e.g., “brother”).
LEGAL AND LOCATION NOTES:
From time to time, this podcast may mention specific therapeutic modalities, medications, or substances — including psychedelic-assisted work.
Any mention is for information and storytelling only, not a recommendation or instruction.
Laws and regulations vary widely by country, state, and region, and they also change over time.
It is your responsibility to know and follow the laws where you live, and to consult qualified professionals before making decisions about your health or safety.
Please do not interpret any part of the show as encouragement to break the law, use any substance unsafely, or move forward without proper precautions and support.
REACH OUT TO THE SHOW
Share your story
If this episode resonates with you, you’re welcome to reach out.
One of the core intentions of this show is collective healing — naming what happened to us as children, honoring the truth of our lived experiences, and recognizing ourselves in one another with clarity and compassion. If you choose to share your story, know it will be treated with respect.
Every message is held in confidence, and every story is received as something precious, not sensational. Whether or not your experience becomes part of the podcast, your voice matters. We can heal in solitude, but we also heal in solidarity. This space exists so survivors don’t have to feel alone in the long, quiet work of making sense of what happened and who we’re becoming.
If you feel called to share your story in a future season of the podcast, I want you to know that there’s space for you here — on your terms, in your timing, and with as much or as little detail as you’d like. You are never required to be polished, certain, or “ready” in any performative way. Your lived experience is enough.
For many survivors, telling their story — slowly, deliberately, and with support — can be an act of reclamation. Our first season was exactly that, for me. It can also be a way of contributing to our collective healing — one voice illuminating what so many others have lived, naming the truth in ways that make the world more honest, and more humane.
If you choose to reach out, here’s what you can expect:
You can share as much or as little as you’d like in your initial message. Some survivors write a few sentences about the broad shape of their experience. Others write several paragraphs. Some simply say, “I think I’m ready to talk about this,” and that is more than enough.
You might include:
• The general nature of your experience (without needing to relive anything in detail).
• The part of your story you feel drawn to explore or articulate.
• The themes you believe might help other survivors feel seen, validated, or less alone.
• Where you are now — emotionally, relationally, or spiritually — relative to the events themselves.
• Anything you’re certain you don’t want to discuss publicly (this is just as important as what you do).
• You are fully in charge of what you disclose, and your boundaries will always be honored.
Why Your Story Matters:
Every survivor’s story is distinct, but the emotions, patterns, and questions underneath often echo across lives. When you share your experience, you’re not just speaking into a microphone — you’re offering language, validation, and companionship to someone who has carried a very similar pain.
Stories help us see ourselves more clearly.
Stories open doors.
Stories remind us we are not what happened to us — we are so much more.
Your story, in whatever form you choose to share it, expands collective understanding of what CSA looks like, how it shapes us, and how we keep finding our way forward.
Where to Write:
If you feel ready, you can reach out via:
Your message will be received with compassion, confidentiality, and zero expectation.
SUPPORT OUR WORK
Ways to connect
This podcast is part of a much larger body of work — writing, service, survivor advocacy, and creative projects that take time, care, and community to sustain. If this episode meant something to you, there are a few ways to support the work and stay connected to what’s unfolding here.
Subscribe to Mokwa’s Meditations
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Explore our offerings
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There is no obligation to support us in any particular way. Your attention, presence, and willingness to engage with difficult stories already makes all the difference.
EPISODE CREDITS
Yes, it’s a one-woman show (with a little help from my friends)
This podcast is a commitment to a new kind of revelatory storytelling — written, shaped, and produced by me, Christina Mokwa — through the companies I’ve founded, Mokwa.org and Mokwa Creative Company. It exists because of my lived experiences and creative discipline, and also because of the steady presence of supportive women whose insight, generosity, and quiet brilliance helped me realize my multi-year vision.
Hosted, written, and produced by:
Christina Mokwa
Story by:
Christina Mokwa
produCTION SUPPORT:
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Audio MIXING, MASTERING + EDITING:
Music + Sound Design:
Original score: Christina Mokwa + Benji Antonio
Preformed by: Benji Antonio
COVER art + branding:
Katherine Alt + Christina Mokwa
Creative direction:
Christina Mokwa
Special thanks:
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*Podcast produced by Christina Mokwa — © 2026 Christina Mokwa/Mokwa LLC/Mokwa Creative Company
